I am here to write out my thoughts, yes I am blonde and yes I have several blonde moments but I am not dumb.. I actually like blonde jokes and I understand them, so I guess they do not apply to me.
But being a blonde sometimes can work to my advantage, and sometimes not!! Like acting dumb to get out of a speeding ticket, that didnt' work for me.
I will start with what brings me here, I need an outlet for my thoughts and events that happen in life that if not released I may just lose the rest of my mind. I have figured out that my mind works quite well when others don't conplicate it. But it is impossible to think that will ever happen.
I was married 16 years, and I think that was about 15.5 years too long. Don't get me wrong I have nothing against marriage, if it is a marriage that is mature and loving and two people care and want to work together and build a life together, In my case this was not how it worked. My ex husband, was a control freak, a dictator, a loud and at times a hateful man. There were some good times, but the bad outweighed the good and started to become only bad, day after day.
I did have two beautiful children in my marriage, that is the only good thing my husband ever gave me. And it is because of them, that my marriage ended.(the reason being I couldn't call myself a mom allowing my angels to live in a house of hate and voilence) But it wasnt' a bad thing for it to end, I just wish it had ended on a good note and we could have been mature and civilized and said "hey this isn't working for me, lets just end it". But that wasn't how it ended, it ended voilently and harsh and with my ex being removed from my home in front of my children in handcuffs. But that is how it was meant to be so I have accepted that. My children and I are happier and healthier not living in that enviroment any more. It was a good thing in the end.
I have since meet a wonderful man, who treats me and my children with respect and love. He is all I ever wanted and I never knew that a relationship could be this good and happy.
Which brings me to the reason I am here. Even when life is good, there are still things that can just drive you nutty. I try to elimate the negative in my life and concentrate on the positive. I try not to live in the past and embrace the future. But so many things can clog the brain waves, like my ex, my children, my new boyfriends family(disfuntional at its best), bills, my aging father, my sister and so many other things that just can drive up crazy if you let them.
There are things that happen in life, that really make you stop and say "seriously, really God seriously" You just can't make this stuff up ... it just happens.
here is a list of all the weekly stuff I deal with
Ex husband
my aging father
my unstable older sister
my boyfriends unstable sister
my boyfriends father
my daughter
my son
Traffic
grocery stores
my boyfriends phyco ex girlfriend
and that is just a sample of what I have to think about every day.
People think being a stay at home mom is easy, not so.. I would rather go back to work and deal with my whinny, forgetful annoying boss, but then I would just come home and have to deal with all this stuff as well as a job.
But dispite all the crazy people I deal with daily, it is a good life and you just have to laugh at times and just embrace it.
Life is good in my world.
